Elaboration.

Kristen&Hannah, you most likely remember the bonfire before I left. We spoke of demons. As you know, they freak the crap out of me. Even though I know that they can't exactly hurt me. I specifically remember Hannah mentioning the fact that I'll be in Africa some day and they have a crazy amount of demonic spirited people, she also said that God won't send me or put me in the place of them until I'm ready.
Well God is working on that.

The subject of demonic spirits have come up so much just in the past few weeks. For one, that guy at the homeless outreach my first week. I ended up walking away from him because he was too scary to be around. I feel convicted of that now, but I wasn't ready.
Secondly, my suitemate. She is sooo spiritually sensitive. She loves God so much, it's the cutest thing. Although, there comes times when she doesn't feel God and Satan knows exactly when that time is. She soon gets attacked.
She had an attack the first week here and I didn't really deal with her that much, there were other people in there praying with her and I didn't want to intrude.

So last week I walked into her room and she was just laying on her bed, looking at her bible. I asked her how she was and she said "I'm alright". I knew then that she wasn't, she had tears in her eyes and she was shaking. So I got Nicole and we went in there. She proceeded to tell us that she was actually being attacked in that moment. She said that she had horrible feelings of worthlessness and that nobody cares for her- not even God. When this happens, she doesn't want to tell anyone because she feels that nobody will care about whats happening to her.
So periodically while talking with her a few other girls from the floor would walk in and eventually Olivia got into the middle of all of us and we laid hands on her and prayed over her. Each of us took a turn and afterwards she was in tears.
I couldn't imagine how scary that was for her. She is always so upbeat and happy, and to see her so scared like that- shaking and crying.. it was so upsetting.


God is slowly exposing me I believe, to prepare me for what's to come in the future.
I was talking to Mom about this the other day and she said, "Be careful. Satan knows where you're at and he hates it. He is going to try and attack you from every side, don't lose heart."
She's exactly right.

When something truly great is about to happen, people bail out because they are scared. They bail out because it gets tough. I refuse to let that happen, my life is God's and not even satan's attacks are going to scare me out.