Oh my.

The past TWO weeks we have been talking about evolution in biology, and my biology teacher says, "I really don't understand why people get so offended by it". Well let me answer that one for you, when you've lived your whole life believing God created this world, you are getting a slap in the face when you get to biology class. Someone in my class gave the answer of, "I think it's pride, Christians do not want to admit they came from a primitive species." For me, it's not a pride issue, it's the fact that science NEVER shows both arguments to how the world came into existence.

I'm an open minded person, so i like to listen to other's beliefs. It's just that when people insult my beliefs, that's going a little too far. Last night at church we talked about Evolution as well. Which is kind of ironic, considering we're talking about that at school.

Anyways, Pastor Jeff talked about evolution as i just said, but the question, "If God created everything, then who created God?" came up. I wasn't really sure how he was going to answer that, because in all honesty i had never questioned that before. But when it was brought up, it had me thinking. Pastor Jeff said this, "I'm going to try to give my best explanation, and I can't even wrap my mind around it, so I don't expect you to. God exists outside of time, therefore he has always existed and always will." I think that's a good description, of course he went more into depth with that, but that was just the jist of the response.

In Philosophy we've talked about how time is a manmade concept, and we can never possibly step outside of that concept. Even if we got rid of clocks, calendars, age requirements, we would still have the sense of time passing. Wake up in the morning, go to sleep at night. We would still have this sense that some time has passed. It's impossible to get rid of this concept, so yes it is extremely hard to wrap your mind around the fact that God exists outside of time. Throwing in more of Philosophy, Kant says that we are born with filters- space and time. He says that we can never take off those filters. So how can we say that there isnt a whole other world out there that we cant see through our filters? Take for example, sharks. Sharks see energy, that's how they know that something is still alive. We can't see that. Snakes just see a bunch of moving lines. Every specie of animal has a different filter. So it's reasonable to say that something exists outside of our filters.

That's why faith drives Christianity. In the book sophie's world it says, "If Christianity appealed to our reasoning and our logic, it wouldn't be what it is today." Which is true, Christians don't sit and wonder at exactly what moment God created the world, what time he decided to create trees. Christianity isn't science class, it isn't cut and dry. It's full of mystery and wonder.

So I mean, I am most definitly not trying to bash anyone's beliefs on evolution, just simply stating my take on it.


p.s.
carbon dating is a load of poo.
They took a dollar bill printed in 1974, carbon dating "proved" it to be 500 years old.

I can not wait until summer.
srsly.

I'm sick of everything right now, i just want to get out of here for a while.

Everybody knows you'd break your neck to keep your chin up.

Copeland is saving me right now.
Thanks to Josie for introducing them to me.

I don't really know what to feel right now, all I know is that I feel drained, or maybe deceived? My eating habits have changed in just the past few days. I hear depression does that to you.
I'm really pathetic.


Although, tonight, i felt the most peace i have felt in a while. I went with some of the other woodwinds in band to see a woodwind quintet from the St. Louis Symphony. Classical music soothes the soul. Hearing the melodies, the harmonies, the expression of art being portrayed through music... Peace. I got lost in the music. Too bad i had to be brought back down to earth.
There was a woman sitting in the front row, and she was flailing her arms, not having a care in the world. Most of the other kids i were with thought she was the weirdest person they have ever seen... but to me it was different. That woman expressed herself in such a way that most people would have thought strange. She followed her heart.. she showed her love for this music without caring what anyone else thought. I admired her for that.

Music really does mean a lot to me. I may be a nerd for loving classical music, but seriously. Take the time to listen to it when you are stressed out. Listen for the lyrical phrases throughout a piece. Music can take away most of my stress and send me in a place where everything is all better. Everything is perfect.

"If you aren't in the prequel, then you can't be in the sequel!!"

Tonight was the best night I've had since December 23rd, 2006. And that was a pretty gosh darn good night.

Quotes of the night:


"...you're black.
Niggawhaaaa??"

"And I'll do my little dance, and it will be like doot doot doot doot do doooooo, and Verity will cry"

"No! I'll get up and roundhouse kick her"

"I'm the only one that can have nude tattoos of... Oprah."

"Well we've already done grafitti, might as well go to a club. JOHNNY VEGAS!"

"Umm, excuse me? Are you supposed to be out this late? Are you under the age of 18, because i got a call about some kids running with books."

"I can get you some free water! It's clear... and pretty much like heaven."

"I feel sorry for Candace and her parachute pants"

"I know why Megan agrees with him ;)"

"Uh Megan, I don't think you can fondle the cameras..."

"YOU GUYS ARE PANSIES, JUST BUY THE SPRAY PAINT!"

"Is this velvet?"

"Hey guys I'm really excited! Are you excited? I'm really excited."

"We have to take you to our secret spot, put on the blindfold!"

"Shutup Josie, I hate you Megan, Hey Verity"

"I'm gonna take the big stall, hahaha."

"Hey Look! Its Joe Its Joe Its Joe!!"

"Lalalalalala. Lalalalala. Lalalalalaaaalalaaalaalaaaaah. AND I SAID HEY! HEY! WHAT A WONDERFUL KIND OF DAY! WHERE WE CAN LEARN TO WALK AND PLAY! AND GET ALONG WITH EACH OTHER!!!!!"

"I look like an old woman."

"UMMALEXWHATDIDYOUDOOO!!OMGMEGANISSOMAD!!!"

"*whispers* I pooped my pants."

"*GROANS* oHHH MAAAN. Lettuce makes anything taste good."

"I like redheads......"

"OMG RAPE!! JOSIE ROLL UP THE WINDOW!!

Okay, so here's what went down. We had the best night of our lives. We cried, we laughed, we pooped our pants, we even did ILLEGAL stuff. (dont tell anybody, or our parents, and especially dont tell the zombies in the cemetary..)


Me. (the...paranoid one)
Verity.(the whah baby)
Josie. (the superhero)


Joe was there, but he didn't help write this, so he doesnt get a cool name. So blah...

Philosophy.

Man today in philosophy got me thinking.. (oh how ironic)

Where do our thoughts come from? We dont conciously say to ourselves, "okay, im going to think about this or this". Our thoughts just come to us, and we dont really control them. So where do our thoughts come from then? Its so wierd because we can just be sitting somewhere focusing on one thing but all of sudden we remember something we were supposed to do the night before, or we just start thinking about things in the future. I'm pretty stumped though. I dont know where our thoughts come from. The only explanation i can come up with is that we are making ourselves think subconciously... but then where does our subconcious come from? GAH!!
Then we have totally random thoughts being connected to other trains of thoughts, and we choose to think about what we think about. Every one of of has a filter, a filter in which we choose to think about certain things, we choose to listen to certain things. The human mind just amazes me...

ugh..

Except for a select few...


Boys suck.
:(

8:23 [i just lost the game]

Primal Fear.
is awesome.
That's not just because I'm madly in love with Edward Norton either. Well that is a reason, but the movie was just awesome. Then again I'm into that sort of psychological stuff. And yes, i know I'm a noob, it was made in the 90's and I'm just now seeing it... I know i know.

Anyways, so I went to Nautilus today with my friend Josie, and we split up now to work out on our own. So I'm walking on the tredmill halfway through my mile, minding my own business, when an amazingly gorgeous guy walks up and uses the tredmill next to me. I think, oh great I'm sitting here, no make-up, hair in a ponytail. Great... So I finished a mile and walked away. My hopes of finishing 2 miles was gone, haha.
But oh man, was he a pretty one.
:].

2ND POST?!

Yep, that's right. 2posts. 1day.

I was reading over my philosophy notes a couple minutes ago, and came across some of my favorite quotes from Sophie's World.

"Life is both sad and solemn. We are let into a wonderful world, we meet one another here, greet each other - and wander together for a brief moment. Then we lose each other and disappear as suddenly and unreasonably as we arrived."

"Acting responsibly is not a matter of strengthening our reason but of deepening our feelings for the welfare of others"

"Remind yourself that you are only living a minuscule part of all nature's life. You are part of an enormous whole.
I think I see what you mean...
Can you manage to feel it as well? Can you perceive all of nature at one time - the whole universe, in fact - at a single glance?"

Just thought I would share those.
:].

I guess i could actually start using this more often...
So heregoes.

I just got back from my first "camping" trip with the crew i joined. First of all I was told it was going to be a cabin, where I would be able to relax [believe me, my week was mighty stressful]. Was it a cabin? No. So there was dissapointment number one. Second of all, I was sick... Dissapointment number two. I pretty much did nothing all weekend. I was atleast hoping for relaxtion but when you go with the boyscout troop as well... forget that idea. Oh well, I'm home now, and I can relax and be as lame as I want within my own home.

School's going alright. I have a stupid career research paper to start working on.. and 50 notecards on the information i found on that career [psychology]. But other than that, school's not going to bad for me right now. Philosophy class is freaking amazing. My brain hurts after our class discussions, but it's worth it. If you ever get the chance to read Sophie's World, read it. It's awesome.

As for now, I think i'm going to go curl up in a ball, maybe take a nap, maybe read a book. I don't know yet, but whatever i do, it will be relaxing..
hopefully.