Everybody knows you'd break your neck to keep your chin up.

Copeland is saving me right now.
Thanks to Josie for introducing them to me.

I don't really know what to feel right now, all I know is that I feel drained, or maybe deceived? My eating habits have changed in just the past few days. I hear depression does that to you.
I'm really pathetic.


Although, tonight, i felt the most peace i have felt in a while. I went with some of the other woodwinds in band to see a woodwind quintet from the St. Louis Symphony. Classical music soothes the soul. Hearing the melodies, the harmonies, the expression of art being portrayed through music... Peace. I got lost in the music. Too bad i had to be brought back down to earth.
There was a woman sitting in the front row, and she was flailing her arms, not having a care in the world. Most of the other kids i were with thought she was the weirdest person they have ever seen... but to me it was different. That woman expressed herself in such a way that most people would have thought strange. She followed her heart.. she showed her love for this music without caring what anyone else thought. I admired her for that.

Music really does mean a lot to me. I may be a nerd for loving classical music, but seriously. Take the time to listen to it when you are stressed out. Listen for the lyrical phrases throughout a piece. Music can take away most of my stress and send me in a place where everything is all better. Everything is perfect.