WOOT!

I am about to embark on a terrific journey of a weekend.

YAY!


p.s, I've just discovered Deas Vail, and I LOVE THEM.

GLORIOUS!

I just got home from working on my pop culture radio broadcast with my group.
It's so great.

it involves zombies, we also had to come up with commercials to put in the middle of it and one of them was:

This broadcast was sponsored in part by: Clear and Clean

(to the tune of tick tock by kesha)
"Wake up in the morning feeling like a zombie
walk into the bathroom and you scare your mommy

I'm talking flesh fallin' off your face face
Looking like a disgrace grace

stop the track! Clear and clean- have no green- will stop this from happening to you.




It was glorious.
7 minutes and 22 seconds of sheer greatness.

Nightmares.

I almost dread going to sleep now. I've had a nightmare for the past 3 nights. I'm seeing a commonality in them, and each of them have some part of death in them.

Sunday night:
I dreamt of sitting up in my bed after waking, and there was a coffin at the end of it. This man walks in crying and tells me that his sister is dead in the coffin. All of a sudden after he leaves I hear banging on the coffin and it slowly creaks open. This woman with maybe 3 strings left of hair and green glowing eyes sits up and stares at me. She talks to me, but I can't remember now what she says.

Monday night:
I'm in a house that I can't recognize and this man walks up to me, and he seems like a nice guy. In the middle of his speaking to me his eyes, once again, turn green and he growls at me. I only think to run, and he chases me to this house. I walk in and there is a family sitting at the dining room table and they motion for me to come on in. I don't know this family. The man won't enter this house. Once I see that he is gone I walk out of the house, but it isn't a street anymore, it's a laundry room. A little boy walks in, and the same thing happens with him. This time I had a spike in my hand and stabbed him through the back of his head and he shriveled up and was steaming.

Tuesday night:
Even though this is the most recent, all I can remember is being chased by ghosts.


Demonic spirits maybe?
I don't know, but I don't like it and I dread going to bed tonight.

Pessimist.

Yeah that's right.
I'm in one of those moods.

blah.

Yay Flowers

This is my newest piece, I just found it in one of my folders on my computer. I must have taken it this summer. So I tweaked it a little. At first I hated it, but now I'm growing to love it. I've been in this wierd mood about photography. I felt like every picture I took was horrible, probably because I'm tired of my camera. (which I plan to get a new one with my money I earn from camp this year). Either way, I'm going to suck it up and get going on photography again!

Anybody have motivation that they can spare?

I need it real bad.

Scholarship stuff makes me want to fall asleep.
Then facebook is calling my name.
I CAN'T STAY FOCUSED.

Lord knows I need to get on this scholarship stuff, Greenville isn't exactly cheap...

"The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun"

Christopher McCandless

Letter to me.

I hope you never forget who you really are, and I hope you follow your dreams. Don't let the world, and the people in it, get you down. Go where you want, He'll lead you. There is such a passion stirring inside you, screaming to get out. Let it. Don't be afraid of change, with it comes new and fascinating oppurtunities.
Most of all, I hope that your faith in God is always the way as it was when you were 17.


The above is an excerpt from a letter I'm writing to myself. I'm sealing it on my 18th birthday so I have about 2 weeks to finish it, and I'll open it every 2 years. So the next time I'll read the full letter and see the pictures I enclose in it will be, January 31, 2012.
Hopefully I will see the dreams and goals I set for myself coming true.

...poop.

The following is what happens when seniors get free time in the computer lab. The school must think they are clever by putting a code on facebook, myspace, youtube, basically everything a teenager uses. Well, someone cracked it and it leaked out.
My friends and I got onto facebook, and started commenting...
IT was the best english class of my life.

Verity Loves POOP!

Verity Woody LIES
Josie Kaylyn Harpole OH OH ME TOO!
Megan Legenbass YAY!
Josie Kaylyn Harpole I heard verity say poop was her favorite thing in the universe. She smells it.
Erin Beyer ew you guys are sick
Megan Legenbass and sticks her hands in it for warmth.
Verity Woody I KNOW RIGHT?
Megan Legenbass erin loves poop too
Verity Woody i said that to erin..
Erin Beyer you guys make me want to vomit
Josie Kaylyn Harpole I saw Erin stick her hands in it one time.
Erin Beyer josie your full of lies
Lexy Brueggeman dirt balls for real.
Megan Legenbass Erin, don't be ashamed. As verity always says, poop is beautiful
Erin Beyer poop is icky
Josie Kaylyn Harpole Lexy was next to Erin. They both did it. I wouldn't lie.
Verity Woody YOURE MISQUOTING ME
Josie Kaylyn Harpole Yeah, it's okay guys. I don't think of you differntly.
Erin Beyer lexy and i would never touch such a dirty brown thing
Josie Kaylyn Harpole ...again.
Megan Legenbass that's not what youtube shows!
Verity Woody no more pumpkin muffins for you.
Josie Kaylyn Harpole They allow things like that on youtube!?
Erin Beyer what brought up poop anyhow
Lexy Brueggeman stink faces! all you accusers. exspecially josie.
Josie Kaylyn Harpole : o
Erin Beyer mhmm i know thats right
Megan Legenbass well, verity decided to talk about her love for poo, and well you know.
Verity Woody josie has a secret obsession with bowel movements...creeper
Josie Kaylyn Harpole I'm just being true to how I saw it. I caught you brown handed! It's hard to deny that.
Erin Beyer KNEW IT!!!!!
Josie Kaylyn Harpole Whatever, it was all Verity. She loves the stuff,.
Verity Woody no i just really like alice in wonderland
Lexy Brueggeman now we know your secret.
Erin Beyer yea!
Megan Legenbass lexy don't try to say it's just verity.We know what you do in your free time...SICK!
Josie Kaylyn Harpole NO! NEVER! just don't tell please.
Megan Legenbass josie, don't be ashamed!
Verity Woody maybe you guys should just stop trying to deny your love
Lexy Brueggeman oh my word! yea...i freaking read books, what you do in your alone time on the other hand....different story!
Josie Kaylyn Harpole People just don't understand Megan. Let's run away.
Erin Beyer so how is everyone's dramas going? hahahaha
Josie Kaylyn Harpole Poopy.
Megan Legenbass Okay, I run away with you.
To poop island.
Lexy Brueggeman of course...here comes the pooop talking.
Erin Beyer seriously...what kind of person would want to visit an island named after poop?
Megan Legenbass me!It would be glorious
Verity Woody HEY WE HAVE A THREE DAY WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!
Josie Kaylyn Harpole OH! Oh! This kind!
Erin Beyer you would be the queen of poop island megan..
Lexy Brueggeman perfect time to visit poop island i suppose
Josie Kaylyn Harpole It's always a perfect time for poop.
Verity Woody 10:45 is the perfect time
Josie Kaylyn Harpole so is 10:46.
Lexy Brueggeman the morning is my time.
Megan Legenbass As queen of poop island, I DECLARE EVERY DAY POOP DAY!
Josie Kaylyn Harpole YESS! WHOO!
Verity Woody even thrusdays?
Josie Kaylyn Harpole Especially Thrusdays.
Megan Legenbass thrusdays are the best days.
Lexy Brueggeman its a healthy movement.
Verity Woody because things go THRU you
Megan Legenbass exactly!
Josie Kaylyn Harpole I poop about once every 2 days.
Lexy Brueggeman im dying!
Megan Legenbass or 2 times EVERY DAY
Verity Woody dont die! theres always poop!
Lexy Brueggeman haha...yeah what a thing to look forward to. i must have poop hope.
Josie Kaylyn Harpole Only if I eat cheese.
Josie Kaylyn Harpole poop hope = life.
Megan Legenbass we should make bracelets: POOP HOPE!
Lexy Brueggeman lets do it...hope to find the poop.
Josie Kaylyn Harpole braclets sound beautiful.

ARGH!

I wish I had a youth group to be proud of... a youth group to call my own and invite people to. But there is NO way that I would invite anyone searching for God to my homechurch youthgroup. We have amazing facilities, but it's just not like it used to be. I remember looking forward to going every wednesday when I was in about 7th or 8th grade. I had high school kids to look up to, but now I don't know who the younger ones are looking up to now.
The lesbians?
The potheads?

I feel horrible about this, and I feel like I am being very judgemental but these teens who are there now... they are in it for the wrong reason. I'm glad that they are getting the experience, but it seems fake to me.
Don't get me wrong, I LOVE LOVE LOVE Sunday morning service. I would invite everyone and their dog to that.

I'm sorry, this is just me rambling...
I'm just extremely upset about this.

WE DON'T EVEN HAVE PRAISE AND WORSHIP ON WEDNESDAYS ANYMORE!
What's happening, I feel like the outsider at my own church.
It's really sad when the kids who go to church on sundays don't even show up to the wednesday services.

The Start of Freedom?

Josie and I structured this lovely plan to see Copeland play in their last tour.
In Chicago.

The plan is that we take the train from Alton to Chicago, $44 roundtrip.
Chris meets us at Union Station in Chicago, and tours us around until the show starts.
Go to The Metro to see COPELAND! Sadly, for the last time. $16.

$60 trip. (I have to come up with the money on my own though)

MOM SAID YES!
Josie and I will both be 18 by this time. (holy crap)
We're going by ourselves.

and my mother said yes, is this the start of my freedom?

WAAHOOO.

IT'S FOUR IN THE MORNING!

Tonight has been quite eventful. I'm sitting here on Josie's couch (on her laptop as well).I just took the heat for waking her mother up from sleep... while Josie and her sister ran downstairs and left me to fend for myself. It was like waking a bear from hibernation. Scary right? So anyway, we had chinese take out, well actually Josie ate most of it and I had a couple peices of crab. We then decided to bear the cold weather and go to rent a movie. I had to wear her sister's non-outside boots covered in multicolored hearts in various sizes. They were quite glam, but a wee bit slippery. Josie shoveled behind the car, which I'm not really sure what good that did, while I brushed the snow off of her buried car with a broom!
We venture out into the wild. We had to make a pitstop about 10 feet from her house because we couldn't see a thing. I got out and wiped the snow off of the headlights, "LET THERE BE LIGHT!!". I felt a little like God for a moment. We got to the movie store after sliding right past the entrance and picked out Into The Wild. This was of course after we looked at every single movie in the place after we knew what movie we wanted in the first 10 minutes.

We watched the movie. It was wonderful.
(I really mean that!)

Then we sat around talking all philosophically, smoking pipes and wearing glasses (in Josie's mind atleast), then we headed to the kitchen! The best room in the house. Josie ate everything in sight, while I drank everything in sight. Nothing could quench our needs.

Now we sit here on the couch, waiting to write down Josie's goals on a peice of paper. She's really into the whole list writing thing. Which is a sign of a mental illness that we can't think of right now. Maybe Alzheimers?

We're off to swallowing red-heads now, chao.

Missions

My admissions counselor from Greenville just called me to ask questions about financial aid and whatnot, but we barely talked about financial aid. We mostly talked about the mission oppurtunities provided there.

She told me of her experience in study abroad in UGANDA! Which is really awesome because Uganda has really been on my mind. Anyway, Greenville has so much to offer when it comes to missions. Student led missions over seas, in the u.s., wherever (just as long as a faculty member agrees to go). There is a whole group/club for kids who want to be in missions.

So when I tell people "I have been called to missions", most of them kind of look at me funny and just shrug it off. When I told my admissions counselor her response was, "Really? Awesome! Do you know where you have been called to?"
That just amazes me, because they understand. Missions is a big part of Greenville. Which makes me even more excited to go. For a while I was debating on going to Greenville because of the cost.. but now I'm positive on going.

I'm supposed to be there.

Romans 13:10 and some ramblings.

"Love does no harm to a neighbor; therefore love is the fulfillment of the law. (NKJV)
"Love does no wrong to anyone. That's why it fully satisfies all of God's requirements. It is the only law you need" (The Living Bible)


"I loved the fact that it wasn't my responsibility to change somebody, that it was God's, that my part was just to communicate love and approval"
-Blue Like Jazz.


I can't change someone, only God can. All I am supposed to do is show my love for them and approve of them.
I'm going to show 2010 a lot of love.