Intentions

If you were to ask me a year ago to distance myself from a very attractive guy with a great heart I would have laughed in your face. Seriously.

There were two main reasons for this.
1. He had broken up with his girlfriend over the summer when he left Ecuador because of distance, and he didn't want to deal with a long-term relationship. (so he still had, and has, feelings for her but can't be with her)
2. This is the biggest reason. In the process of getting close to him, I was letting go of God. Subconsciously of course. I wasn't purposefully putting this guy over God, it is just that my feelings were getting in the way. My head was only focused on thoughts of him versus thoughts of God.

When I form any sort of relationship with someone (friendship, dating relationship, teacher/student relationship, mentors) I get attached really quickly. I love to learn new things about them constantly and once they become a part of my story it is really hard to let go. What was happening with this guy was how much potential I saw in him. I've never really liked someone like him. He was a new sort. :p. As I continuously learned new things about him and had a great time with him, I was forgetting God's calling on my life. My mind was elsewhere.
So once I realized this, I prayed. I didn't know what I was supposed to do, I mean I really liked this guy already. The answer I get from God is, "If he's worth it, you'll wait."
Uh, okay. Thanks.. What am I supposed to do with that? So I was talking to my friend Erin that day about it. She believes it to mean that I should distance myself from him right now. See if he starts conversation, see if he wants to hang out. Just wait and see if he shows any interest or any sort of worth in my life. This doesn't mean that I am completely ruling him out of my life (we're still remaining friends), it just means that I'm not putting so much time and energy into thoughts of him as I had previously.

In no way, shape, or form am I saying that we are meant to be together. All I know is that we aren't supposed to be right now. 1, he isn't even close to being emotionally ready. 2, I don't even know what his intentions are for anything he ever does. haha. Surprisingly enough, I am completely okay with this. I'm not giving myself false hope either. I'm taking it as it comes. And if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out.