27 days left.
27 days until I'm a college freshman.
HOLY CRAP.
I had a conversation with Jennifer the other night, and I had a great realization. I'm beginning to see how God is preparing me and working within my life so I can become who I'm meant to be. If you would have told me a year ago that I would be praying out loud in front of people, giving devotions at school, or giving a chapel message to boy scouts- I would have laughed in your face.
Seriously, I never ever ever wanted to pray out loud, because it just freaked me out. And speaking in front of people? WHO KNEW?! Freshman year I remember almost puking during my first speech. I'm really seeing Him at work lately, preparing me for missions and it's amazing. I've taken a step back and looked at the people He placed in my life, and I've looked at where I'm going and where I've been.
God's been with me every step. Yet, at times, I still doubt. It's moments like these that you begin to realize that God is in control, and that He'll never leave.
I have something to live for, and I can't wait to show others.
I can't wait to see the look on someone's face when they drink their FIRST glass of clean water.
I can't wait to see people fall on their knees to a God they never before had the chance to know.
I can't wait to see people change.
What's so wrong with me putting my life on hold for just a little bit, when it means giving ETERNAL life to someone else?
I wish some people could see the passion stirring in my heart for this, and realize that this is what I will do with my life. I've had adults ask me what I'm majoring in and when I tell them my intended major, they give the look. The look that says, "Oh, well that isn't a real job, I'm sure she'll change her mind."
No.
This is my calling.
I'll be a doer.
HA. They're right. It's not a job. It's a lifestyle, and therefore better than any "job" they do that doesn't bring joy to anyone because they suffer through it just to get money and not because they're happy in their field of work!
ReplyDeleteHA. It's not a job. People who don't understand are silly... I like those people. Because one day I'll get to smile because I was right and they were un-supportive. (:
I agree with Hannah. That drives me insane that people only seem to care about "jobs". I don't want one. lol
ReplyDeleteAnd you're not putting your life on hold ;) This IS your life, what you were called to do, and I think you're doing great!!
lovvvve youuu!
thankyou ladies :]
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