Anyone else want to throw something on the pile?
These past couple of weeks have taught me alot. I've learned how much I can handle (believe me, i've reached my limit and it keeps coming), I've learned how hard it is to let someone go when they have finally let you go, I've learned how hard it is to be selfless, and I've learned who I can put my trust in to listen.I've realized how much I still have to learn, how much I still have to live, how much I still have to experience.
Things have been piling up like crazy. It seems like once I finally get everything under control, soemthing else pops up. My breaking point has come and gone. Is there such a thing as a second breaking point? Seriously though, I can't take all of this. Letting go and realizing that someone has already let go of you is a hard concept. When I get attached to a person, it's extremely hard to let go of certain feelings. One of my best friends just had a really horrible break up and the thing that I have been trying to drill into her is "Let him go, he's already let you go". I feel like a hypocrite... I can't let go. It's dumb too, because I know I should. I keep holding onto the hope that things could be different. "You can't fix what wants to stay broken."
Then I realize that I need to be mature about things. I need to be selfless. Think of everyone else's happiness instead of my own. I'm trying so hard because I just want everyone else to be happy, even if it means sacrificing my own happiness. It's hard... but needs to be done. Tears and fears will get me nowhere.
I'm trying not to be upset. I'm trying to stay strong.
If you go by the strict definition of hypocrisy, it's when someone CLAIMS to believe in something, and then not follow it. It's not hypocrisy to give out advice you yourself might have trouble following occasionally, as long as you acknowledge that it's hard for you to follow. We're all flawed. If you know something's right, then there's no shame in saying it.
ReplyDeleteAnd everyone should strive to be selfless, but if you're feeling exceptionally down at any moment, then it's never wrong to look out for yourself once in a while too. The way I've always looked at it, if I feel like I can take a hit or two in the happiness department, then I take it if that will protect others. If I don't feel like I can take it, then I focus on myself. And there's nothing wrong with that.