Love. Trust. Adoration.

I had a life-changing morning.
No lie.

We had a guest speaker at church this morning. Her and her husband came from Louisville, Kentucky to speak to us. Well I wasn't really all too impressed with her at first because I didn't like her voice, but then she really started speaking to me. (Excuse me while I digress) I wrote a blog a couple weeks back about talking to a friend of mine, about really being a light and witnessing to her. At the time I felt like something was going to change, but recently I have found that her actions aren't really changing so I continue to pray for her. Anywho, this woman starting talking about witnessing. She said, "If you have kept praying and praying for someone and you feel like you have done all you can and you just want to leave it alone; don't give up." She really made a point with not giving up and that was really what I needed to hear. From then on I was hanging on her every word.

After her sermon was over she said that she felt like she was being led to do something for God. She said, "If anyone has on their hearts the passion for bringing people to the Lord please come stand at the altar with me." I wasn't really wanting to go up and stand in front of the whole church because I knew I would get emotional, but I did. I walked up and my mom followed me. This woman and her husband were just walking around the group and praying for all of us. They called it "Soul searchers", I thought that was pretty neat. So this man walks by me and is praying and I hear "Lord give them the spirit to say the words that the people need to hear, let them be a light" and he touches my forehead and I break out in tears. I couldn't control it and I stood at the altar and prayed and cried and when I opened my eyes I realize that there is only one other lady standing there. All the others had gone to sit down.

My pastor, my youth pastor and the speaker all layed hands on me and prayed for me. This prayer touched my heart like no other. It was something along the lines of, "Lord this young woman standing before You has a passion for You. Give her the strength and the spirit to reach out to those around her." When they are done praying for me I go to sit down next to my momma.

Pastor Webb stands up and says that God is asking him to speak for him in this moment. He says this:
"I'm speaking to those under the age of 20 in this room. I have the answers you are looking for, I know where you will go to college and it's all planned out for you. Trust me, just trust me. I have the answers, I have guidance and oh, I have a mate for you. Trust me with all of your being, and I will lead you where you need to be."

Those words consisted of EVERYTHING I had been praying for in the past 2 weeks. Coincidence? I think not. I have been overwhelmed with where I want to go to college, I have been looking for answers from God about what I'm supposed to do with my life. And the main thing I've been praying for is an amazing Christian guy to come into my life. I'm a romantic without romance, how sad. But, he added that last part about having a mate as a side note, like it was just coming to him.

I am on fire right now, I am giving everything I am over to God. I know that He is going to lead me where I need to go. I hope that people can start to see more of Him and less of me in my life.
It will make my life if I see 2 people in my life who mean so much to me give their lives to God. I can't express how scared I am for them, how much I want to spend eternity with them, how much I want them to see what I see.
It's all in God's hands now.